Poem: The Holler
from our poet of the month: Eugene Gloria
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"I must write her a note of glad tidings / with tidbits of nostalgia instead of our grief"
THE HOLLER
I’m opening up & then shutting down
Why this compulsion to tell everyone
when I should keep it zipped
Why tattle to the dentist who expects
nothing more than good hygiene
Why, oh why, tell the manicurist
& her blind husband typing in braille
to his pretty cousin Thuy
who read my lips & sang
Why is he bothering us with this
Grateful for dreams, I dreamt of my sister
wearing a chador & living in Kansas
I must write her a note of glad tidings
with tidbits of nostalgia instead of our grief
Death, she learned, is an accomplishment
a wafer of sun the sky took for Communion
& the labor of water is transforming
the human body into spittle in the wind
The keep, the culvert, the crawl space
the circular breathing, the water phone
the mother dead, dear dead
How remote the spirit feels this finale
How best to submit my thesis as my final final
Acknowledging that my mother is done, kaput
Let’s not get cross, I tell her. Let’s get pissed
Celebrate all that’s still wet in Kansas
Is that OK with you? Two of us sailing along
among the drones locked in their labors
Maybe we’re all in need of pampering
My students, poor saps, feeling sentimental
about leaving this old place for the known world
I envy them for the promises they keep
the rebel holler they harbor in their hearts
Who wouldn’t want to be them
seasick, uncompassed sailors
Listen to Gloria read The Holler:
Insight shared with S&H from Eugene Gloria:
"This poem examines the limitations of language and, for me as a poet, the challenges in locating the appropriate words to express grief. I wrote this poem not long after my mother died. How best do we bear this communal sorrow without sentimentality?"
From SIGHTSEER IN THIS KILLING CITY by Eugene Gloria, published by Penguin Books, an imprint of Penguin Publishing Group, a division of Penguin Random House LLC. © 2019 by Eugene Gloria.
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